I know that I am young.
I know that the chances of me falling asleep and never waking up at my age are very, very slim.
But I think about it anyway.
And I stay up late, allowing fear to get the best of me as I focus on how much I would hate to die right now.
Because no matter how bad life can get or seems to get it’s always worth living. I might be feeling overwhelmed and hurt, stressed out and under appreciated, or even tired of the day-to-day grind; but I would still rather be on living in this world than buried six feet under. There are people who focus on the bad things they’re experiencing and they get to a point where they get tired of feeling like they’ve hit bottom, and so they contemplate cutting out early. But I think they forget that once you’ve hit bottom you can only go up and get back to the top; and for me, I’ll always be striving to get to the top - regardless of what’s going on.
And so I stay up late and sometimes I don’t sleep, and while it’s partially because I’m scared it’s also partially because I am thinking about how I much I just want to get to the top, and how I just want to keep living so I can get there.
It’s 2:00AM, and I feel I’ve rambled a bit with this post. But I felt compelled to write all of this out here.
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